Today was one of the best worst days ever.

The day was good. Got to see my bestest friends and also the guy in my life right now. I also forgot all of my homework.. left my world civ book at school... AND our class got yelled at and made to feel ashamed by the algebra 2 teacher. Anyways... ://
can't wait til Moni and Karls come over :DD

Sooo... all righty then

Ex told me to think about it..
guy at school is acting weirdly
friends are still awesome
Face is still smiling
World is still turning..
my heart is still flying

So for once, I am blogging about something other than a guy

Reading about developing personal values and also being responsible. I am wondering how my time is going to work out when I get into more intense schedules.. especially church because I don't wanna give up church. Something to think on at least...
A lot of homework to do. World Civ, English is VERY IMPORTANT!, chemistry, and algebra.. way too much stuff to do.

Tired........

Tired.. stressed... CONFOOSED.. happy... EMOTIONAL!
lol jk to all of these..
jk to the comment above....
anyways.... finishing my algebra 2 homework.. oh the many joys

Thanks Moni

You helped.. you really did actually.. especially with the don't forget or wait for 50 years part.. ima wait for one month exactly starting now. In october the 23rd, if he is still "with me" I will deeply consider going out with him but I am not going to go as fast as i did last time because I REFUSE to get hurt if I can prevent it. Suggestions...concerns..... ideas?? MONI?!?!?

Wow.. new development but still one that I am unsure of.

Me to Ex: Well i mean i already told you i am over it. and that is good that if given the chance you wouldn't do it again, but Dan idk how long it'll be... i mean r you willing to wait?

Ex to Me: You better know it. I know I hurt your trust in me, and I know I'm far from perfect, but I'm willing to wait. As a matter of fact, Jay and me already discussed what I need to do if I'm serious about this.

Me to Ex: Well idk even how i feel about this, idk if i even really want to be with you. Just give me some time.

SO. Moni... care to comment.. OR COMFORT... or HELPP?!?!?!?

SURPRISE!

SOOO my mom is having a bday tomorrow. Sitting here with aunt and uncle planning deets! P.S. Ex is still talking to me and I am sooo confuseed!!!

Hmmm...

After a long email talk with my mom about the cons of my ex.. I told him that for right now we need to be friends... To my surprise he was like "That is fine with me :) I'll be here waiting for you when you are ready.." i think that is sweet but I gotta think about it.. def think about it.

WHEW!

Took World Civ test yesterday.... only missed two out of the graded questions... it was pretty difficult.... anyways finished with world civ altogether.. Today ima tell my best and younger friend Kat goodbye..... also I am going to continue on with English.. today will be restful ;ZZZZ

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Wow.... My head is hurting from showing my mom the sound that only people under 30 can hear... it turns out that it can hurt your ears and head if you listen to it more than twice.. OUCHIES... so much homework to do also.. grrrrr

So...

Been watching father of the bride... Makes me smile every time. Also thinking about decisions that I need to make soon about people in my life... HMM

Church tonight

So....church tonight just basically proved what I already knew.... I am falling for him again and this time idk if i really really want to..... but he gave me a hug and the sparks flew like in Miranda Cosgrove's song 'Kissin U'....

In love with the Beatles

I am officially in love with the Beatles....grrrrr I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND WISH THAT I HAD A CHANCE TO MEET THEM WHEN THEY WERE ALIVE... :((((((
.... I have to talk to Ash and also wish that i could talk to Dan about stuff...

Hmmm

Bad grade on world civ thing.....however this day was amazing..... I loved every single moment of it and hope that there are more like 'em.... My ex finally got in touch with me and he said tht he was missing me too..idk what to do....... whether to pursue or not... DOT DOT DOT

Hmmm...

Watching escape from Alkatraz and wondering how life would have been if me and my ex stayed together..... looking at my aqua socks and thinking how blessed I am and how much I miss my camp family....listening to my cousin's annoying voice and thinking how fizzlankin hungry.....hearing my stomach grumbling and I see how random this post is... so yeah...
lol went to an awesome festival today where I went to volunteer with my church....it was a lotta fun with no youths around and therefore no drama. DONE with homework, leaves me time for ME! and also wanna get on netflix and watch a movie :D

Stars!

So...sitting here singing an awesome song................. and looking at my gorgeous star hung up in this classroom.. NOTHING TO DO.... :D

SO TIRED...