Watching Sara Bareilles

So tired from last night.. but watching music videos with nothing else to do...... Wish that today would be amazing! <3

Wowwwwwwww ;)

So everything is actually pretty calm and happy right about now..... Spent the night at Ash's with Chrissy and played the wii until every musclce hurt me ;P I got ready for school and I am sooo tired ;P Kk.... heading off to pick up Karls....... SCHOOL.. here I COME *buh bamm bamm buhhh*

Time to rant.

So........ every SINGLE person in my life right now is annoying... except for a select few of my friends everyone is either mad at me, annoyed at me, IGNORING me, and just being mean. Idk what I have done. FOR ONE THING, Moni is annoyed prob because I invited 6+ friends to the bonfire. If she wants to stay at home then so be it but it is a church that is open to everyone. THE POINT OF THE BONFIRE IS TO BRING MORE PEOPLE IN, not to enclose yourself within gates. Doesn't matter where you will be, you will need to interact with people. SHE IS STILL MY BESTIE so me having more people to talk to doesn't change ANYTHING. for another thing, Quis is acting all weird. He likes me then he ignores me.... him and Moni both are having like mood swings.. i kinda understand Moni cuz she is a girl.. girls get moody sometimes... but Quis is a boy.. HE HAS NOTHING TO GET MOODY ABOUT.. do you see boys having periods? DIDN'T THINK SO!.... for another kinda thing, my mom and brother are now constantly fighting. SERIOUSLY? shut your mouths cuz I don't feel like hearing it at 6:30 in the morning.. WOULD YOU? didn't THINK SO. My aunt and abuelita go against whatever I say, even when I know I am right they are all like "vee are older therefore vee know vhat vee are talking about" i am like 'no you don't, you just think you do'. My uncle wants me to fix everylittle problem on his computer...as if i don't have a headache already. My cousin never listens to anyone and he is just so annoying with his talking back and mocking. GRRRRR. my life is a crazed movie right now.. a movie that people would sit through just to watch me suffer. PLUS. i am sore from exercise so here is the layout. i am going to go to school, take a STUPID sat test and then see my OH SO SMART friends who don't have the guts to tell me what is wrong with them or with myself. I am coming home to a family who just PLAIN OUT ANNOYS ME.. I am emailing a guy who is just as CONFUSIN as I am.... and then I have HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK to do over fall break. An all day activity on Friday and a 5 hour activity on Saturday. Church on Sunday where I can see my oh-so-amazing ex (NOT) and then Sunday night church again where I can think about my problems and ways to stop them that are impossible for me. FRIDAY, i have the bonfire where MAYBE i will have some fun and get to hang out with all of my friends. I AM EXCITED that a lot of people are coming and if SOME PEOPLE don't like that fact, then they need to reexamine the bible they have somewhere and get over it. CHURCH=pulling other people in to help them become better with themselves and with god. Anyone blame me for trying to pull in Alec, or Wrenny who kinda both really need it? what about quis and moni who def really need it? Yeah... so that was what I needed to get out and since I have no friends that are willing to listen to me anymore. and def not willing to talk to me about any problems.. whether it be mine or theirs... i guess i have to blog it..... ;/ Hopefully gonna have a great day. Probably gonna have a miserable day. When i told Ash i was close to breaking.. she didn't realize how TRUE that was. DOT DOT DOT

TIRED!

Very tired... can barely stay awake right now. I am gonna go get a shortbread cookie and then discuss with myself the schedule for the week. TOO MANY THINGS TO DO!!!!!!! :P

Just so Irritated

I know.. I know... there is alot of JUSTS.. but today I am just disappointed in my inability to talk with my mom and also just irritated with my ALMOST boyfriend...... he is becoming more withdrawn :/

just so Mad. and Sad. and Disappointed

I know why I am MAD. My mom who actually never even TRIES to listen to me makes me Mad. I try to talk to her and either she has something else to do or she just doesn't listen. I am just so tempted to tell her that by the time I am 30 years old I am going to be the girl who goes to a party and is like "oh.. you've had 17 amazing guy friends.... yeah how many have I had? ummm one... he broke up with me because of my family... yep.. i know SUCKS DOESN'T IT?" SAD because the one guy that actually cares about me RIGHT NOW... is starting to withdraw because AGAIN I know my mom won't let me.. and you know the excuse "but everyone else has one".... it is actually true this time. All of my friends who have bf's are still the same before and after... THEIR GRADES DON'T CHANGE! she kinda needs to understand that. I am disappointed in myself because not only do I NOT have the guts to tell the guy... i don't have the guts to tell my mom how I really feel. I am SICK and TIRED of putting this mask up for the whole world to think tht everything in my life is fine and dandy. WHEN IT IS NOT.

Troubled waters ahead

So.. Mom is mad/sad at something.. WHO KNOWS WHAT.
Had fun past friday with friends. Moni, Karls, and Char always set the mood to PARTAY..
Also had fun being the 3rd wheel at the Band festival with Ash and Duh-vid. Saw my brother Zack.... and saw others I haven't seen in over two years.
Still pondering bout the guys in my life... ;/ Confusion is my main feeling right now.
Karen OUT.