Inspiration

There are days that the feeling of giving up is the strongest
Maybe it's tackling an essay or dealing with a family member
Perhaps it is just the overall feeling of December
All I know is there are times I need a kind ear
I need someone whose words won't sear
I feel like those days are the worst
The ones that I feel have no worth
Fighting isn't the same as Resisting
And most of the days I am not winning
I feel like losing on purpose to Life
Like giving up everything to avoid all strife
I feel that those days are the ones on the bottom
Where I've gotten far down and still scraping the end
I am typing that message and about to hit "send"
I am working the courage to tell them all "no"
To Leave this country and not know where to go
To have the surprise, the suspense of unknown
To have all my adventures NOT out on loan
I want to leave now, to leave far, and leave fast.
But I know that those days are not all my best
They aren't realistic and aren't worth the test
Those dreams will all crash, and crumble, and fall
And leave me behind to build up a wall
Those days where my world crashes down all around
I listen, I wait, and I search for the sound
The sound inspiration makes as it rushes on by
The feeling it gives and I finally release a sigh
A sigh of relief as my problems make sense
As a new light is shone and the dirt gets all rinsed
Inspiration provides the hope of new days
Inspiration is found in the sun's brilliant rays
That "I" word is one that I constantly find
And at the end of a rough day, it helps me unwind.
As I pray and I look to the sky for new hope
I close my eyes and I know I can cope
My problems, my scars, my memories and I
Have no reason to ask that big question of "why?"
I know that I'm here for a reason He needs
I am here to plant among us those life-saving seeds
I just pray that with time, my friends understand
I'm not weird, I'm not crazy, I am just being his hand
Not having a father makes having one great.
Even greater still is that lifted-off weight.
Rambling I know but what else can I do?
I know, now you know the wondrous news.
Spread it, go tell it, to all that you see
Lift up HIS name, Don't mention me

Have faith in your Lord, his love never ends
He needs us as messengers, its us that he sends
To the ends of the earth, the poor and the broken
He wants his spirit in your body, AWOKEN.

AWAKE his spirit and EMBRACE his Love. REALIZE his grace and LOOK up above.

PRAY and READ the Word that he crafted, prayer without reading is DEAD.

God Bless :)