Why is it so painful?

I never ever understood why the bible asks us to wait until marriage to have sex. I do now. Can you imagine telling your future wife/husband, a person whom you are so deeply in love with that no one else matters, that you had that first special moment with someone in the past? I try to imagine that and every time my heart just breaks. Not even going as deep as marriage, just dating can be heartbreaking sometimes. Try going to school with the ex and you'll see what I mean. Not going to go into any details, maybe later in a poem I wrote that night, But just trust me when I say that it wasn't the best situation to be in.. It hurt all three sides and had some repercussions on people not even involved. Drama is NOT my middle name. Believe me readers when I say that I was taught to treat all the same, I may not like some people, I may love others, but I'm supposed to treat them the same. When my boyfriend talks to me though, it just gives me chills when I think of what he is comparing me to every time that he looks at me, call it being self conscious, call it being insecure, I call it something that many girls have to struggle through. That feeling that you may not measure up, that he says he loves you now but just wait until later when something better comes along..... Depressing right? I don't know how some people do this, but an old youth leader at an old church sends out daily texts. Some days I read them, other times I don't. The times I choose to read them, they turn out to be everything that I could have ever wanted at that moment. In this specific one it basically says not to worry, to hand all of my worries over to the only one who can handle them and hold me all in one hand. Breathtaking isn't it? Girls, be happy and be proud. If you have a guy that you love as much as I love mine, Cherish every single moment that you have with him.. You never know when it could all be torn away from you.......

Tip of the day: Sing as if no one is listening, Dance as if no one is watching, and love as if you were never hurt before. Some strong words that I think every one needs to live by.. Added to that is pray as if the only ones around are you and God.. Have a great week readers and start it off on the right foot despite your circumstances.

Interesting Fact of the Day: The slowest-flying birds in the world are the American and Eurasian woodcocks, which both impressively manage to avoid falling out of the sky while flying at only 5mph during their elaborate courtship routines.....Even on a bad day.. when I am sore and tired and grumpy.. I can walk faster than that... Wow......


Again readers have a great week, I suggest checking out James 1 and 2 for this week and also live life to the fullest telling everyone you see the great news. Love you guys :)

Love,
Karen

Art Auction

Hey there faithful readers ;)

Hope your week has been full of fun and exercise.. I know mine has. After regrettably jogging on Tuesday, my tired old body has had a hard time  keeping up with stairs and class schedules and all of that >_< Haha but anyways you guys, as fantastic as this week has been all good things have to come to an end. I did participate in an art auction today, despite NOT being part of the art club I helped with every aspect of setting up that auction and it was fantastic! I even won a (?)Pasta salad photograph.. Quite.....deep.... full of...depth.. and deepness. You get my point, so many tantalizing words to say and so little time. Anyways, from this exercising and even further walking today... This girl's body is about to give out. I am so exhausted! I guess it doesn't help that people around me are getting annoyed and just messing with my emotions...Sometimes it sucks being a teenage girl, then I remember no matter how young I am, I can change the world one changed life at a time. Tomorrow I am going to try to take a creative picture of my shoes....Why you may ask... Because if I send in a really cool picture of my shoes and I get chosen as a finalist I may have the opportunity to go on a mission trip to....*drumroll* GUATEMALA :D Do you know how amazing that would be if the Lord actually planned for me to go there? It would be so superb. Look at me throwing out all of those vocab words, this coming from the girl who has the SAT soon....*study mode activated*
All right guys, Enjoy the rest of your week, have a beautiful weekend, and never forget that Pitch Perfect is one of the best modern movies so far... I recommend it to other teenage girls..... yes guys you can watch it as well :)

Tip Of The Day: Get in shape while your body still allows it. Several people use motivating quotes, music, a workout partner, or even things posted inside and outside their fridge. As for me I use the bible and my hyperactive dog. Two factors that combine nicely to give me the proper motivation :)

Plain terrified......

Guys these past two weeks have been PRETTY fantastic.. Prom is actually coming up so that is one big thing I'm pumped about :) So... I am going to cheat a little bit and mention some countries JUST to make myself feel better when they read this blog post...You ready? Great Britain, Russia, Germany, Australia, China, New Zealand, Belgium, Japan, South Africa, Ghana, Italy, and Colombia......I'll let you guys know how this turns out..... Yeah yeah I was in need of a confidence boost... SO I had three sweaty guys come to my house... Sounds hot right? Well don't even think about it, they were the disgusting kind of like "Hold your nose and run" kinda sweat.. and one was my brother so hotness is completely taken out haha but anyways guys, Finals coming up and lemme tell you I am SUPER nervous. Any tips or any reassurances are definitely welcome...even if I can't read them I will know and feel that you are saying something and will feel extremely happy.....Cheesy i know i know. But anyways guys, God Bless, sleep tight. One more thing, If you ever meet one of those friends who you can talk to until the world falls apart.. Hold on to them.. Don't let them go, its a very foolish thing to do guys, Not speaking frm personal experience or anything >.>.......<.<...... Anyways guys that was the tip of the day!!!!

Interesting Fact of the Day: If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months, and 6 days you would have made enough sound energy to heat a cup of coffee... I think this finally discourages me from yelling considering its not worth it if I can't cook a taco... Do tacos even require cooking? Question of the day? No "Gosh Karen you're so stupid!!!" Comments either...Yes Mean girls reference, Back in Lohan's good days...

ANYWAYS,
For real this time guys, exhausted and still have bible studying to do. Pray for me guys and for America, people are in need all over the place guys... Oh one more thing.......I really really really want someone from the Netherlands to visit my page so lets see if mentioning their name does the trick...Netherlands... I know....My blog is a failure if I have to mention names for people to come. One can only dream ;) Ciao!

Music..

Guys, I'm reaching a point in my life.
Call it emotional puberty if you want, but I have been so moody for the past few days. It feels like everything is going the wrong way,
Again I've hit that humongous speed bump called AGE and life just slapped me across the face. Why do we have to grow older?
Whenever I feel like this guys, Just hopeless and just run down guys, just feeling as if crying is the only way to fix things.
I pray and pray and pray. I turn on my music and find myself slipping away to a world where voices are the only things that exist. Where the notes heal every broken heart and erase every scar.
I love my family, I love my life, but don't get me wrong. Sometimes I feel as if I will only belong someplace when I'm finally where I belong, with the only God here guys.
I just feel so hopeless. Call it the ramblings of a dramatic teenage girl, but I call it a startling realization. Call it a beginning life crisis, I call it everyday problems. No matter what I'm going through guys, I fall on this Earth guys and pray to the place that no human can reach. Just saying guys, ANY thing you need, ANY advice, ANY help, ANYthing, email me guys: karebear1319@aol.com
I know what it feels like to feel sucked in without a door out, I found the door guys :)
Off of that depressing topic though, Interesting Fact and Tip of the day
Tip Of The Day:
I know you've probably heard this more than a million gazillion times, Really guys a text message is not worth a life. When has a text message been worth losing your or someone else's life? NEVER. Just hold off texting while driving. Hold off changing the radio station or changing the AC. Texting while driving is one of the leading causes of deaths. That means that texting is one of the highest causes of an entire families' life RUINED. I can't even begin to think about how I would feel if any of my friends, especially my bestie with her own car, died while driving distracted. Gosh.

Anyways,
Interesting Fact of the Day
A donkey's eyes are placed SO precisely that it can see ALL four of its feet at once.... Pretty cool if you ask me.

Rolling.........2010

Hey guys! Sorry again that it's been so long!!! Hmm, what to say what to say... I love the fact that Shakira is now on the voice! That is my culture being represented!!! Oh yeah :D Another thing, everything has seemed to calm down school-wise with drama and all that jazz... I think that problems in most of the relationships I have are pretty straightened out. Guys be proud of me, I am busy applying to both scholarships and summer camps. It has kept me super duper busy I can go ahead and tell you! Idk you guys, the future just seems so difficult to conquer and go through. Who knows though, Funny story to tell though so enjoy. Today, my mom and I were driving along in our van and she was telling me embarrassing stories of my childhood, as all good mothers do. And we were both laughing our BUTTS off at a stoplight when suddenly we hear a car horn. The guys in the truck next to us were cracking up just because WE were cracking up.. At least we gave them a good time!!

Tip of the day: Lately guys, I have been experiencing either other people with self esteem issues or issues that I have found. Reading the bible just clears thing up guys because the thing is, God made you the way you are to fulfill his purpose. You are PERFECT in his eyes. 1 Samuel 16:7 (People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart) Guys, he looks at your heart. Whereas you may get these horrible, HORRIBLE comments from people about every little "imperfection," God just sees past everything because he MADE YOU. 

Interesting Fact of the Day: The first known contraceptive was crocodile dung, used by Egyptians in 2000 B.C.

 

Yet Again....

I know, I know.. Patience is supposed to be a virtue.. Kind of hard to be patient when you were never taught by a patient person, but anyways! Spanish tutoring today was fun..... if by fun you mean torturous, annoying, and just plain a waste of time. I don't understand the problem with students of today.... They think nothing of their future and nothing of the opportunities that are being presented to them. I am pretty tired of this readers but this is definitely yet another opportunity for God to teach me patience in the only way he knows how to do, through experience. ANYWAYS, So far the week has been pretty great! ^_^ From our new Chrysler van to just classes in which I understand the material, this week looks to be pretty promising. Hopefully the rest of the week follows as such readers. Hope that your week is fantastic and that the holy spirit leads you in the direction that you are destined to go in. Make the right choices!!

Tip Of The Day: There is a difference between being tolerant and being walked all over.... I think that I am walking that line so tip to you guys: Make sure to both maintain that good person/good attitude/easy to approach side but also that strict/respect me/respect yourself attitude as well. Don't let people walk all over you, that is different from turning the other cheek because in letting people walk all over you, you're giving THEM the control and you are handing THEM your voice.

Interesting Fact of the Day: A lifespan is a billion heartbeats.... Bah-boom...

Guys quick sidenote: thought you would appreciate the cutest/weirdest pictures of my dog in a Wal Mart Parking lot.. Enjoy :D

Trust?

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A relationship is a hard thing to maintain. There is that basic level of trust but then after that is just so many problems. From fights to jealousy, a relationship is just so hard. There are people in my current relationship that are actually trying to intercede and just get me to give them exactly what they want: me single and the guy with them. You know sometimes I am just so ready to give everything up, to move to my old school and just forget about all of this drama. FOR EXAMPLE, I am a Spanish tutor. I believe that every person has that capability to learn, and I make it my point to NOT be one of those people who makes you feel just STUPID. I know how that feels and it just stings and makes you feel horrible. So in Spanish tutoring, I call on one of my boyfriend’s little groupies to say THREE letters in Spanish. She says them pretty well but one of them she pronounces a little off. So, JUST LIKE I HAVE BEEN CORRECTING EVERY OTHER STUDENT THAT HAS MESSED UP, I tell her “Good Job” But I correct her quickly and move on. She goes to my boyfriend, and yeah here is the funny part readers, she tells him that when I called on her I rolled my eyes….. I was rude to her. I’m tired of this readers. One of the many times that I just wish I were back at a school where I had my little group and absolutely no drama. Its drama like this, these 4 groupies that don’t even KNOW me, that makes me want to throw up. So, Plan of Action: Not call on any of them in Spanish tutoring so they have no base for a bold-faced lie to my boyfriend. Also, just leave and spend time studying whenever they are around. I am going to avoid any problems, I am not going to give anyone at that school a reason to talk about me behind my back or lie about me or call me names. I frankly am tired of it, Yes I love them all. Each and every girl is special and beautiful and my boyfriend is definitely sweet and unique. I’m just left wondering: How does God want me to go about witnessing to people who will probably not even listen and then just go behind my back anyways? I am tired readers… very tired. So tired of that junk that I even left school without my bookbag and had to go back for it. Yeah…. I’m pretty tired of it. But guys tip of the day: It doesn’t matter what you are feeling whether it be anger, jealousy, irritation, happiness, joyfulness: Control yourself. Don’t let anyone see you out of control because it basically won’t help with your witnessing to other people. A good tip is that whenever you are feeling one of those extreme feelings, read a bible verse. A good one would probably be “A gentle answer turns away wrath but a harsh one stirs up anger” – Proverbs 15:1

Interesting Fact of the Day/Joke of the Day: In the movie “A Little Bit Of Heaven” I got a joke to retell to you guys! Feel free to spread it on!

So, this old man and his wife go to the doctor for his yearly physical exam. The doctor tells him “Sir I need a stool sample, a sperm sample, a blood sample, and a urine sample”

The old man is hard of hearing and turns to his wife “What?! What did he say?!?”

His wife rolls her eyes “Just give him your underwear!”

HAHAHAHA lol that cracked me up when I saw it in the movie! But anyways guys just have a great weekend. Sorry I went off up there but I needed to spew some of my anger. Hopefully the remaining weeks of Spanish tutoring go better than having three girls evilly glaring at me the entire time. :/ *sigh* Pray for me please.